Ze End to a Swagtastic Year

2013. Nearly over. Course I had to post something about that. All the swag, YOLOs, and pathetic ‘gangsters’  we must say good bye (and good riddance) to. If we’re lucky.

Cuz we should totally Ring out the old, and Ring in the new!

^[and that is a reference to Lord Alfred Tennyson’s canto, Ring out, from his poem In Memoriam (I believe?). ]

That actually goes very much against what I believe, but it’s a reference I just HAD to make. And I’ll explain that later, but first, a bit more on the year of 2013.

Thank God that draws an end to that terrible year. And yet, despite the overview of so many terrible things that happened this year, all the deaths (of both the famous and those who luckily weren’t), the twerking, the fashion trends, and flops to music, unnecessary movie sequals, disappointing books, and many many more, the year wasn’t that bad for me.

I mean, I’ve grown! At the end of this year, I’ve grown to a different person, and in my opinion a better one, that the one I was at either the start of this year, or the end of the one before that (2012). I’ve managed a few things that I thought I never could before- yesh, I have indeed become faster at reading =3

I’ve read more books, although not nearly as many as I’d have liked to (ugh, I’m still very much behind on my reading…). I’ve become friends with more and different types of people at school and otherwise. And hey- now I can actually wave around an eyeliner without potentially maiming myself! So yeah, progress ^_^

I’ve had FUN. And that’s what I think counts at the end of the year ^_^ And you shouldn’t be summarizing everything that you hate about yourself or want to change or just want gone at the end of the year- because, let us face it, that’s exactly what you do when you write down those stupid new years resolutions. I think it’s silly, the thought that “yeah, I’m all pumped to change myself! To become a better person, with a better, healthier lifestyle! The new year starts in, oh 48 minutes, and I will do all that then! New year’s wooo!” You should focus on what great times you’ve had this year. Not diagnose the personality or social or any other type of problem that you have with yourself and just decide to change that.

Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s greaat to want to improve yourself, your lifestyle, and get rid of annoying/bad habits. But why is the New Year’s the time where you get motivated to do so? Is the thought of starting off with a clean slate at the beginning of a new year just so appealing? Well, it should be and can be. But, honestly? You don’t get a clean slate. You only try to suppress all wrong you’ve done in the world and all things you aren’t proud of doing/regret, and just pretend that with a new start, you’ll turn over a new leaf.

That ain’t gonna work. Because you lose that motivation in just a few weeks, maybe months. And you shouldn’t. But you do, because that illusion of having a clean slate is gone. You don’t have a clean slate, and you’re reminded of that by still doing things you don’t like about yourself- small things maybe, but they are there. And that’s where it all goes downhill. You don’t try, or you forget, or you just damn give up. 

Sure, there’s the other factor of peer pressure too. How everyone want’s to improve themselves,  so you decide, what the heck, to do it too. But then again, you lack motivation and plop, end up exactly where you were.

Ok, maybe there are a few people who stick it out, who make some sort of progress even if they don’t reach their goals. But I still think it’s a waste to do it at new years.

I personally find that life-changing goals or super-set-in-stone-rules one sets for themselves or decides to accomplish work out best whenever you’ve made up your mind to do so, be it in the middle of the year or not. I think that it’s actually much more effective any other time of year.

After all, how many people do you see join the gym in January? Triple the current population of the Earth, correct. But at the end of September, how many- no, forget September, how many at the end of APRIL will be from the initial that joined in January? Hardly any. Maybe one or two. Four if your lucky. Maybe six if two of them were lads just after some abs to woe women with. But really, peoples’ moral just disappears, no it would be more apt to say it wavers, and then wanes. Soon, it disappears, and one day they either question why they are in fact still bothering, or why they started to do so in the first place and convince themselves with ‘logic’ out of it.

“huff, huff…why..am I lifting such heavy…weights..? pant, pant…I don’t want to be buff…I’m not even that fat…and..huff…guys wouldn’t want a chick with big huge muscles…ew…pant…I’ll just…run…like, jog..every..pant, pant…morning, before school/work/whatever…I’ll do yoga…yeah, that should be enough….huff..Ok, I’m done ^_^ And feeling great =D ”

Aaand pew, that resolution flies out the window =/ In the end, a bunch of us have given up on our resolutions, and just tell ourselves we’ll definitely do it ‘next’ year. Hah. We never do nor will =(

I know I have. I had a goal I set for myself last year, as a new years resolution ( I make up a few every now and then when I feel like it. I don’t believe in the idea of coming up with self-improvements as the end of a year comes and the start of another one beckons. ), to lose weight. A typical girly teenager resolution. See, I’ve got some unproportionally large thighs. I’m not fat, I’m not chubby, but my thighs make me self-conscious. So I don’t feel comfortable in a few short-ish hoodies and skinnies. But that’s why I had this vague idea that I would loose weight in time for this winter so that I wouldn’t be self conscious. Buuut, I gave up =P I got tired of exercsizing in the summer, and I started eating my normal levels of junk food, which isn’t very normal nor should ever be recommended to anyone =/ I can literally have (and have, at that) pure honey out of a bowl with a spoon. So sugar? I live off it and love it~!

(Coolioness- I have lost weight this year even though I gave up on that ^_^ And I don’t care too much about my thighs anymore. So the self consciousness is muuuch less now =) like,I think I lost maybe 3 kg? Or 2 and a half? )

Aaaaaah, this is tooo long to explain there are just about 16 minutes til New Years left now! So more on this explanation later I guess =P Oh and I still have to post the second part to that weird dream…hm, will do, will do. But not today, tomorrow ^_^ Meh, it’s new years, gimme a break =D

And even if I’m against the resolutions, I’m so up for the partying xD But not AT 12 am. Usually afterwards =D Explanations laterrr~!

So with that, I wish y’all a HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!

Make it full of fun, happiness, and hope! May it be a thousand times more exciting and unexpected than the last! =D

Crazy, Chocolate, and Cookies,
-Ze

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